A Dream Differed

Dear Dreamers,
It's currently 6am as I sit here replaying Christina Aguilera's Lift Me Up, I can't help but reminisce on an incident that happened a little over a week ago. A boy I went to high school with was gunned down right in front of my house. Did I know him? No, not personally. Ask me any questions about him, and I couldn't tell you anything more than his name. Even then, I can't picture his face half the time. I knew of him rather than who he was. All I can tell you was the last moments. Hearing two gunshots ring as prominent as the lunch bell. It was early, or late to many of us 12am. What they were arguing over was only speculated. A 20 year old black (probably gang affiliated)male gunned down on the street of Chicago would be the next news headline. We ran to the window, hoping not to be seen for fear of what would be our fate. A group of people fled from the lifeless body that had red fluids rushing into the gutter. Is that how we expect to die? In someone's gutter, away from any family and friends...alone with no one to hear your cries for help except onlookers from a distance. He was shot once in the back and once in the head. Two minutes later, the police pulled up and put police tape around my house and those surrounding it. I was then interrogated at 3am about what happened, not knowing that already an hour ago, the shooting was publicized on FaceBook. The boy who shot him, was only 15. Neither of these boys had a chance to live...One whose life was taken viciously and undermining what his future held, the other a teenager still in highschool who made the biggest mistake of his life and now is a fugitive who either has to hide in solitary afraid to be captured or hide behind bars, afraid to face his reflection and the very epitome of what he has become. It just hit me, this isn't what we're meant to be, not only as a gender or race, but as human beings. We were set on this earth for a purpose, and whether or not we share the same religious values, we know that we are meant for better things than THIS?!?!


You can only wonder, what was his mother's dreams for her son while she buries him. As I put on my facebook, no parent should have to outlive their child. What was the purpose God had in store for him (Jeremiah 29:11)? One can only think of the pictures that were magnetized to his refrigerator growing up with aspirations to be a fireman, lawyer, doctor, etc...With two lone gunshots, two dreams were differed and silenced for eternity. Life isn't promised nor guaranteed. Live every day as if it were your last or your dreams may disappear as well...maybe not with something as harsh as death but even more so, life.

"Death is not the greatest loss in life.  The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."

Until next time,

Sweet Dreams....

-Breezy

12 Types of Females

Category: Quiz/Survey

There`sz 12 types a femaLes. which one am i??

Ms. Gold-Digger$$ =]
Advantages
a. You have some one to manage your money.
b. She always looks good.
c. She makes your other niggas jealous.
d. She makes you look good.

Disadvantages
a. When you get broke she'll be gone and take what you have left.
b. She makes sure she has a child by you to sue you for child support.
c. Once your nigga comes up she'll be on his arm the next day.




2. Ms. Freak (secret lover)Advantages
a. She knows all the right positions.
b. She'll try everything more than once.
c. You're never unsatisfied.
d. She'll do all the things your girl won't do.
e. She doesn't mind being your freak, as long as she catches one too.

Disadvantages
a. Eventually, b/c she's a female, she'll end up catching feelings.
b. She starts to act like she's your "main".
c. She fucks wit ya boy and act like you in the wrong for telling her that she's a freak.
d. Eventually her shit gets old. And you need a replacement.



3. Ms. Independent
Advantages
a. You don't have to worry about buying her anything. She got it.
b. She's intelligent, sassy, confident and determined.
c. She's great for (business) conversation.
d. She keeps it real and has goals.
e. She knows how to please a man.

Disadvantages
a. She will continuously let you know, that she can handle it on her own.
b. She will eventually say fuck you and get a dildo.
c. She will consider you another one her play toys, or goals.

4. Ms. [Dime]ondAdvantages
a. She's top of the line.
b. She stays looking like a fantasy.
c. She has the body of a goddess with the face to match.
d. She considers herself a "model" <------- hehehe
e. Gets you on hard whenever you see her.
f. All the girls envy her, but she doesn't care.

Disadvantages
a. She's superficial. She cares only about her looks.
b. She honestly lacks confidence and will annoy you about the way she looks.
c. She's probably dumb as hell and if she's not her personality is dry.
d. You have to constantly keep your game up b/c every nigga is gonna try to get her.

5. Ms. Tomboy
Advantages
a. She's cool and laid back.
b. She'll be willing to play rough with you.
c. Of course, she loves sports.
d. Her body is athletically divine.
e. She's easy to talk to and fun to be around.
f. She's a diamond in the rough.

Disadvantages
a. She'll remind you too much of your nigga.
b. She might not want to change her appearance.
c. She might actually beat you in basketball, football and track.


6. Ms. GhettoAdvantages
a. She's not afraid of any other female or male. She will fight to keep you.
b. She's down for you. She'll be there to bail you out of jail.
c. She's always stays fresh.
d. She can cook up a storm. She can make the best out of a bad situation.
e. She keeps it real and keeps you satisfied.

Disadvantages
a. She doesn't know how to act in public.
b. Your mama can't stand her.
c. You get into with her every other second.
d. She's willing to fight another girl looking at you or her PERIOD.
e. Her weave colors are distracting and her vocabulary is minimal.LMAO


7. Ms. Good Girl
Advantages
a. She's always there for you.
b. She's intelligent, classy, kind, sweet and cool.
c. Your mother loves her.
d. You can see yourself falling in love with her.
e. You are her first everything.
f. She makes you feel like a man.

Disadvantages
a. She's an A or B situation either:
A. You're not gonna get any until ya'll are married or
B. She said she's never done - she said she's never tried - she's sitting there telling a muthafukkin' lie.


8. Ms. MainAdvantages
a. She is the one you respect.
b. She probably may know about the others but might not care.
c. She has all the qualities you want in a female.
d. You've been with her forever.

Disadvantages
a. She starts getting very suspicious and calls you every moment.
b. She will devise a plan to catch you in your act and then kick your ass hahahahha


9. Ms. Psycho
Advantages
a. She's fun and spontaneous.
b. She's down to earth.
c. She loves you unconditionally.
d. Everything about her is too good to be true. So everyone loves her.
e. She makes you feel loved.

Disadvantages
a. Don't you break up with her. She will stalk your ass.
b. She keeps pictures of you everywhere and knows everything about you.
c. She can manipulate the hell out of you.
d. She will consider herself wifey even if she may just be that chick on the side.
e. Fuckin' with her can make your life a living hell.




10. Ms. I have a Man
Advantages
a. She may have a man but she'll mess with you anyway.
b. She looks good.
c. You have an intense night of passion with her.

Disadvantages
a. She'll always come crying to you about the problems with her man.
b. She'll get you caught up and then leave you anyway for her man.
c. If you piss her off she'll get her man to come beat your ass.
d. She'll unofficially make you her man once she gets pissed off at her real man.

11. Ms. TeaseAdvantages
a. She's tempting and a nice piece of eye candy.
b. She's intelligent, athletic, respectable and SEXXXXXXY.
c. She knows how to turn you on without touching you.
d. Everything she does is just so sensual.
e. She can bring you to that point and make you wait to get it.
f. Every time you see her you catch a mini orgasm.
g. Every nigga wants her b/c she's so mysterious and that makes you want to get her first.

Disadvantages
a. NO matter what you think or do you never get it.
b. She probably has a long distance boyfriend somewhere that you will never know about.
c. She gets you hard and leaves you like that. (Unbearable)

12. MRS. RIGHT
Advantages
a. She is not sexy, fine, or a dyme she is Beautiful and therefore encompasses all of these descriptions.
b. She is intelligent, sassy, funny, outgoing, determined, strong and classy.
c. She can cook or at least order a meal that is just like your mother's.
d. Her personality is just as beautiful as her body.
e. She believes in God and follows his virtues.
f. She knows that a relationship requires a 200% quota yet she gives her man an extra 10%.
g. She can please her man in anyway. Mentally, Spiritually, and Sexually.
h. She makes you recognize your full potential as a man and completes you.
i. She's always there for, no matter what your dreams are.
j. She's not afraid to tell you the truth and set you straight.
k. You can talk to her and confide in her, she's your best friend.
l. You love being around her more than your boys.
m. You can share your most intimate moments with her without sex.
n. You can have a bad argument with her and have the BEST Mind Numbing and passionate love making fest ever.
o. She's always willing to find a way to work out your problems and will often take most of your *bleep*. But she's also intelligent enough to leave.
p. She's nothing like any other girl you've met. She's your woman.

Disadvantage
a. You've probably met her, or had her in your life but got too consumed with all the other types that you let her go

comment on which one you currently are dating or you are =)

Sweet Dreams...

-Breezy

My Names

Dear Dreamers...
People still don't seem to grasp the concept of my two names so I thought I'd make an entire blog devoted to it...my name "yagurldadreamer" originated from my mother. Those that know me, know the trials I've been through with her. She always referred to me as her "'creative' one but I always seemed to have my head in the clouds, and need to be brought back to reality." She made fun of the fact that I had "big dreams" that would never come true as well as others I felt were close to me and should've supported me. In tern, instead of taking the negative energy from those comments and let it effect me negatively, I became the dreamer. I realized that I do have big dreams. I even have lil statuesque dolls in my room that have clouds and stars on my ceiling. I embraced the image that was once used to tear me down. The fact is, before every big event, you plan, think, and even dream about it...nothing just happens over night. I am the perfect example of it...ya'll have seen me grow through myspace and especially my youtube account. Martin ain't the only one with a dream lol...I dreamt of one day living my dream and one day I'll live the dream...but every day...even when that happens, I'll still be DADREAMER 


Soon2basinger - I thought this name was very self explanitory until I actually thought about the depth of it. In close relativity to my myspace account, it was showing the growth of a person. I always wanted to be considered this and that type of an individual but as much as I want to be a singer, I realized at the age of 13 I had a lot of work to do...I sang everyday practiced piano every day, danced every time a beat came in...I loved/love what I did/do...I continued to grow until I became 15/16 and felt I'm almost there...I've overcame many obstacles and tribulations to be considered the one thing I wanted most out of life (a singer). Not quite there yet, but well on my way I'm soon 2 b...learning, growing, becoming more each and everyday...I embrace both my names because as ackward as they may appear to some, they were well planned and uniquely made to fit my personality...


SpongeBreezy - The name is somewhat "out there" in a sense. Anyone that knows me, know that I was nicknamed Spongebob in grade school because my real name was WAY too common. I adopted the Breezy and left the Bob out to feminize the somewhat masculine cartoon character persona I am lmao. Now, people rarely call me the full thing, they shorten my nickname by calling me a variation of either Sponge or more commonly Breezy.


Sweet Dreams...
Yagurldadreamer/Soon2basinger/SpongeBreezy

Why you should "EAT OUT" - Parental Advisory L0l

Category: Romance and Relationships

95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us(guys)..so the key is..
eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like......

now once ur in between her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is..

lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..

finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your tongue around the clit in a circular motion...slowly...DONT STOP...the KEY is to hold your rhythm...listen to homegirls breathin'..use this as feedback..and react w/your tongue accordingly..you want her breathin' to be steady...at a steady pace..kinda like a clock...tick tock tick tock tick tock...it sounds lame but she should be breathin' on beat...no. not MOANING..breathing...listen to her breathin'...listen to the moans when ur on the phone or somethin'...now the key is...DONT STOP
(I emphasize this, cuz it's important...if u STOP GO STOP GO haphazard like, you're not gonna get anywhere)...DONT STOP..even if it's to pick a hair outta ur mouth...just hold your rhythm..circle her clit...increase speed gradually...
once u've got the speed up a bit...and her breathin' is tellin' u on target..use more of the tip of ur tongue...and move it less...but at a slightly faster pace...basically work ur way into..flickin' it back n forth like a punching bag..it's hard to explain..but it's kinda like vibratin' your tongue..not swayin' it back n forth like a wreckin' ball..slappin' her clit as you swoosh by..if u can keep this up for atleast 60 seconds...she'll cum..if she's stubborn and won't bust..get a finger or two up inside her..hook ur finger(s)..and kinda "scratch""scrape""tickle""massage" her Gspot..which feels like a lil sponge..it's on the "ceiling" of her pussy..inside..and up top.. about an inch in.. consider your fingers holdin' the harmony..while your tongue works the melody...and she'll bust before u know it.. good..you've succeded..now the worst thing u can do now..is STOP..keep fuckin' goin..this is the good part..if u ignore her pants, rants, and gestures for u to stop..and keep goin' like she hasn't busted..

(she'll initially want u to stop cuz she's all madd sensitive at the moment)..after 10-15 seconds, the sensitivity for her will fade..and about a minute later..yes A MINUTE..she'll bust again..so do it again and again and again until she declares you the winner....

All Sites I'm On

ok so i thought i'd list all the sites im on so you all can help me expand out of the myspace era lmao

my site: www.whoisashleymichelle.com

instagram: yagurldadreamer
www.youtube.com/user/yagurldadreamer
www.blogspot.com/yagurldadreamer (duh if you're reading this you already know that)

aim: yagurldadreamer
yahoo: yagurldadreamer
skype: ashmland90

www.twitter.com/yagurldadreamer



facebook? don't have one
dont google me ahahaha no im serious...dont


i think that's it...if you are contacting me about a job and dont favor myspace messaging you can email me at
landashley@ymail.com

thanks ;)